I haven’t made anything in months (except for podcasts, thanks to my partner shoving me along on that one). Barely written a word, only shot a few videos, wrote a couple of songs but haven’t recorded them (it doesn’t count if you don’t record them. Anything else is just singing in the shower). It’s got to the point where I’m having random nightmares about making stuff. It’s not writer’s block, writer’s block is for chumps. Not life getting in the way, though it’s done plenty of that. Not even videogames leeching away my precious energies.
It’s just not doing it.
It’s weird thinking about what I’d write about, and then not doing it. Having an experience that would make a great video, and then not making it. In some sense, it’s a freedom that lets me live my life in the moment rather than continually generating things for the future, but at the same time, I’m the making stuff guy who isn’t making stuff. Every day it gets a bit easier to be ordinary, and it’s a thing that bothers me deeply. God, I need to make some things again, so that’s what I’m going to do. The show must go on.
In the 5th grade my teacher tried to break me with the hallway,, but instead I was transformed into a superhuman, incapable of being bored. Not exactly, but pretty close. Boredom is an opportunity to let your mind wander and your imagination run away with itself. The real secret is in the video.
This weekend my house has been occupied by Headshots from the Heart organizers and volunteers as we edit video like mad. With forty-eight hours of footage from the past two years, it’s high time something was done, and so it will be. We’re pulling performances, contests, jokes and weirdness, and having a great time doing it (even though much of it looks like five people sitting in silence until one of them laughs). Trust me, this is way better than trying to do it on my own.
It’s more than fun though, it reminds us of what we’re doing and why we’re here, and brings us together on the event well before this year’s event even gets started. It has us reliving the past years and learning from them, both the good and the bad. And the boring. But there’s still a lot of fun to go around, and I’m looking forward to running another great event this year and hopefully for many to come.
For this week, anyway. Learn about physics from an evil AI! Check out a cool kickstarter! See new pictures from the Hubble Space Telescope, and get things done! That’s right, as always there’s a roundup of cool science and art stuff on Concept Crucible and awesome gaming stuff on TPK. Go forth and see the wickedness the world has wrought this week (not wickedness as in badness, but as in coolness. Like the kids are using “sick” these days. Just go).
Today I wrote a thing, explaining the ethical obligations I have to my future self and why I should be nicer to Future Jim even if he sometimes is a lazy jerk. He gets that from his present self, so I can’t blame him.
Science ponies, bionics, a new Table Top episode, and great advice on designing factions. Not to mention an aurora video and all manner of beautiful art. Evry week we’ve got roundups on both TPK and Concept Crucible. I’m off to the Polar Plunge, but will see you tomorrow.
A polar song for the ever awesome David Yoon, a dude who I don’t see with enough frequency and from whom I still have a lot to learn. Thanks for the donation and the request David, it was a treat to sing, despite the wind!
Every weekend we do some roundups on my blogs. TPK this week has a great game kickstarter, a guide to getting started painting minis, and a kickass t-shirt among other things. Concept Crucible celebrates a crowdsourced birthday, laser fusion and a few other things. Also, butt hole song from hell. Just saying. Go and look, come and see, that sort of thing.